I love Italy but I love being with my family more... The excitement of being in one of the most important cities in the entire world is slowly fading and homesickness is setting in. I miss my wonderful family with my entire heart! Yesterday there was this mom and child on the bus, they were talking in English about Thanksgiving, I automatically jumped in the conversation and told them about my families tradition: the three P's!!! (Pizza, Pepsi, Pumpkin Pie) The mother was very sweet and motherly towards me and the six year old girl with her big brown eyes and perfect curls reminded me of Gaelyn. We talked for about 30 minutes and when I got off the bus didn't even realize myself crying. I have had a few issues lately with adjusting and just a few dislikes here and there but I am learning how to cope with them. I am not going to lie, it is very difficult being away from home and feeling behind in school. I have thought about just coming home and doing the easy thing but I don't quit usually. I signed myself up for this and I am going to be strong and get through it.
Ways to help myself though: Travel every other weekend, start going to the gym, start cello lessons, really work on the language, and just show that I'm trying in school.
My chemistry teacher called my host mom this week telling her that I have not been doing any work, I'm not interested, I didn't take a math test, I didn't do a lab report, I've missed school and many more complaints. Well first of all the principal said not to buy any school books therefore how do I do hmwk? I listen as best I can and take as many notes as I can. I still do not know the language so why do they expect me to be able to learn chemistry? I do not know what they are talking about 3/4 of the time and get a little peices here and there but have no idea how they connect. Nobody told me I was supposed to do a lab report after every lab, the math test was soooo hard I didn't even know where to start with those equations.... I got very upset over this. I need time, I need space. I am already stressed and I feel like my first goal is learning the language then I can learn the chemistry and math. I haven't even been here for 2 months, and nowhere near learning a chemistry lesson in Italian let alone being fluent.
I miss my mom, I miss my daddy... losing another year with him hurts. I miss my funny brother, my talkative Kate, my silly four-eyed Ellie, the fairy princess Gaelyn, my supportive boyfriend, being close to my grandma, fall, pumpkin pie... I wish I could just bring everyone here. As the holidays are getting closer and closer I feel myself wanting to book a flight, I'm going to miss grandma's fudge, listening to my family try to sing Christmas carols at advent even though we're all tone deaf. Ugh, I'm scared here, I'm only a 15 year old girl with a stuffed animal sheep to hold onto named Ernie. I pray to God to give me the strength to overcome this.
Ways to help myself though: Travel every other weekend, start going to the gym, start cello lessons, really work on the language, and just show that I'm trying in school.
My chemistry teacher called my host mom this week telling her that I have not been doing any work, I'm not interested, I didn't take a math test, I didn't do a lab report, I've missed school and many more complaints. Well first of all the principal said not to buy any school books therefore how do I do hmwk? I listen as best I can and take as many notes as I can. I still do not know the language so why do they expect me to be able to learn chemistry? I do not know what they are talking about 3/4 of the time and get a little peices here and there but have no idea how they connect. Nobody told me I was supposed to do a lab report after every lab, the math test was soooo hard I didn't even know where to start with those equations.... I got very upset over this. I need time, I need space. I am already stressed and I feel like my first goal is learning the language then I can learn the chemistry and math. I haven't even been here for 2 months, and nowhere near learning a chemistry lesson in Italian let alone being fluent.
I miss my mom, I miss my daddy... losing another year with him hurts. I miss my funny brother, my talkative Kate, my silly four-eyed Ellie, the fairy princess Gaelyn, my supportive boyfriend, being close to my grandma, fall, pumpkin pie... I wish I could just bring everyone here. As the holidays are getting closer and closer I feel myself wanting to book a flight, I'm going to miss grandma's fudge, listening to my family try to sing Christmas carols at advent even though we're all tone deaf. Ugh, I'm scared here, I'm only a 15 year old girl with a stuffed animal sheep to hold onto named Ernie. I pray to God to give me the strength to overcome this.
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